2006
05.22

Nicci once had sex with a guy named Shawn while a handful of kids watched through a crack in the door. He wore glasses and his face was covered in a thick layer of cystic acne. I almost thought that it was strange that she’d fuck him since she was far better looking than he was.

Then I remembered that her pussy didn’t exact discriminate.

The prepubescent boys were standing by the door, watching and catcalling as she allowed the cretin to plow her. I tried to concentrate on the Jerry Springer Show but found myself distracted by the moans and jeers going on around me. I could either take a peek and risk losing all sexual desire for the rest of my life or I could stay put and pretend that I was someplace much more desirable.

The pristine beaches of Phuket. My living room at home. Even the hottest regions of hell. Anywhere but there.

Before I had a chance to change my mind and stoop to an all-new low, the horny kids began to cry out with glee.

“OH DUDE! He’s gonna cum on her tits!”

“Yeah! Oh shit! Did you see that drop get in her eye?”

“HAHAHAHA Classic!”

Nicci emerged approximately 30 seconds later, her hair a mess and her cheeks flushed. She showed no signs of being embarrassed although she was well aware that a pack of little kids had just watched someone spooge in her eye. In a way, I sort of envied her for that. Sure, she was a total skank, but she made no apologies for it. She was as eager to call herself a slut as I am to drink a pint of booze.

Not more than a week later I was in her bedroom smoking a cigarette while she got ready for a night of clubbing.

“Hey, do you think this is ugly?” she asked. She was referring to a black mesh top that she’d just slipped on over a bra.

“Well, it’s not exactly ugly” I replied “but it’s definitely slutty.”

She gave me a look of mock embarrassment.

“Wait” I said, picking up a much more modest shirt from a pile of clothes on her floor “what about this one?”

“Don’t touch that!” she screamed “it has cum on it!”

I wasn’t surprised by this. Disgusted, sure. But not at all surprised.

There was a time when I was genuinely perplexed by her shameless promiscuity. She was not an ugly girl. Nor was she a complete asshole. So why was she so willing to throw her vagina around like it was a string of beads at Mardi Gras? She claimed that the answer was simple.

Her father disappeared when she was 8 and her mother never really cared what she did or where she went. I accepted this explanation because it’s the most probable. But after having lost contact with her over 5 years ago, I now can’t help but think it’s much more than an absent father that caused her to behave that way.

As a former cam girl, I’ve seen girls stick inanimate objects in every imaginable orifice for as little as a copy of Clueless on DVD. I’ve watched as young mothers beg for PayPal donations to feed their children in exchange for a pair of their dirty panties. I see haggard women sell themselves on street corners on a weekly basis. Still, none of it seems as desperate and obscene as Nicci and the things I saw her do to herself.

Maybe someday I’ll venture out to the club that we once frequented together and she’ll be there, shaking her skinny ass just like she did years ago. We’ll embrace and I’ll ask her how she’s doing. And maybe she’ll say she’s left that damaged girl behind and gotten her life together.

It’s wishful thinking but anything is possible.

  1. besides fucktard being short for fuckin’ retard. is no different than using shouldn’t for should not.

    cant say the same for pwned

    apples and oranges, boy.

  2. TGO on June 18, 2006 at 3:15 am said:

    gee how ironic since you have used it too.

    Practice what you preach Forrest.

    But I’m not the one going around telling others to use real words now am I?? You call me & others hypocrites but now that you’ve been called out as one (you can’t deny that!), you’re trying to sidestep it and put it all back on me! You’re just as bad as Senator Flip Flop! minus the flip!

  3. TGO on June 18, 2006 at 3:24 am said:

    besides fucktard being short for fuckin’ retard. is no different than using shouldn’t for should not.

    cant say the same for pwned

    apples and oranges, boy.

    Keep reaching!! You just might touch that ant’s left nut!

  4. HOLY SHIT!! Check out #4 for TGO

    BAHAHAHAHA!!

  5. of course a dipshit like you would enjoy the one on that list that didn’t make sense.

    The first 3 fit perfectly

  6. TGO on June 18, 2006 at 4:29 am said:

    of course a dipshit like you would enjoy the one on that list that didn’t make sense.

    #4 didn’t make sense to you? Aww, let me explain it to you slowly so you can make sense of it, mmmkay Rain Man?

    It said you’re a little faggot.

    Got it. Get it. Good.

  7. #4 wouldnt make sense to anyone but you, which shouldnt be surprising because you are retarded are the retarded always have the active imaginations.

  8. ^ uhh.. roffle.
    Sounds like joo, TGO.

  9. nah you’re the jew around here

  10. TGO on June 19, 2006 at 9:42 am said:

    ….you are retarded are the retarded always have the active imaginations.

    DEE DEE DEEEE!

  11. glad you finally realizw how right your god is. finally something sinks into that thick skull of yours.

    Good job Forrest

  12. TGO on June 19, 2006 at 9:42 am said:

    …you are retarded are the retarded always have the active imaginations.

    DEE DEE DEEEE!

    TGO on June 20, 2006 at 9:32 pm said:

    glad you finally realizw…

    Still flustered I see! You can’t even form a a sentence right! Hell, I’m in your head! I COMMAND YOU!!

    Come back and worship me. Obey my words Rain Man or you shall feel my wrath! You will & shall be my obedient little servant!!

  13. you lost badly and STILL you are trying to reach that lifeline and STILL failing.

    you are a fuckin’ tool.

  14. TGO on June 21, 2006 at 1:46 am said:

    you are a fuckin’ tool.

    DUH! I am a dildo!!

    You’re so bright, I bet your mom called you sun… (geez, I hope I don’t have to explain that one to him too!)

  15. no, you’re just a tool.

    **here’s a nickels worth of free advice for you, calling yourself a dildo IS NOT a good thing**

    what a FuckTard you are.

  16. TGO on June 21, 2006 at 1:46 am said:

    you are a fuckin’ tool.

    TGO on June 21, 2006 at 9:38 am said:

    no, you’re just a tool.

    Going back on what you said are ya? Typical TGO style.

    TGO on June 21, 2006 at 9:38 am said:

    calling yourself a dildo IS NOT a good thing

    Sure it is! You don’t seem to have a problem playing with me? In fact, you worship this Dildo! You can’t get enough of me, that’s why you keep coming back for more abuse! I COMMAND YOU TGoatseO!!!

  17. you god “Keeps coming back” to further embarass you and as always its a job well done.

    your TGO Envy shines.

    keep dancing monkey boy, you are more entertaining the circus freaks.

  18. TGO on June 22, 2006 at 8:14 pm said:

    you god…

    Way to go sharpie! Now you’re seeing the light! Continue to obey me by coming back for more teabags! I COMMAND YOU RAIN MAN!!

  19. **yawn** you just keep getting worse. do you even know how to fight? obviously not if this is all you have.

    Defeated again!

    I COMMAND YOU RAIN MAN!!

    nickels worth of free advice for you.

    It’s going to take more than little 11 year old statements to defeat your god.

  20. TGO on June 23, 2006 at 1:21 am said:

    nickels worth of free advice for you.

    How can you give a nickels worth of free advice when you’re of no value? You’re nothing… like I said before, you’re a big fat donut on the scoreboard of life. You’ve been defeated by the Dildo you have come to worship & obey. Stay obedient to your Master and enjoy the blessings of eternal teabagging each time you return!

    I COMMAND YOU!!

  21. TGO has thousands of fans, idolizers,stalkers, and customers that say different. what do you do? oh yea that’s right you sit on the internet calling yourself a dildo and shouting “i command you” like a little 12 year old special olympics retard.

    TGO is better than you in every way possible. compared to him you are just dog paddling in the shallow end of the gene pool.

  22. TGO on June 23, 2006 at 9:41 am said:

    TGO has thousands of fans, idolizers,stalkers, and customers that say different. what do you do?/blockquote>

    I’m recognized by millions on the local, state & federal level. You claim to run a business. That makes you just a grain of sand on the beach I play on. I’ve enjoyed fucking with you. It’s like running my finger through an ant trail and watching you run around totally clueless & frustrated.

    I would rather be dog paddling in the shallow end of the gene pool than sinking further in the stagnant cesspool of feces that you are god of. But hey, you’ve found your niche in life and no one should take that away from you! (not that they would!!) Enjoy =)

  23. learn how to quote, moron.

    well then you must be calling the planet earth a stagnant cesspool of feces.

    you are such a f’in tool
    you really make this easy.

  24. “I command you.”

    “your a fool”

    And I’m bored, so this is a closed entry.