I look at the monitor with this vacant, blank stare. I know I want to write about something, I just don’t know what about. I don’t feel like I have anything new in my life to report. I’ve been seeing my son lately (thanks to a piece of paper that says I’m allowed to), so that’s a good thing. I’m happier now than I was say a month ago, but I’m not really sure why. Other than him in my life again, everything else is still where it was, and that’s not really a good thing. So I sit here, wondering what to do when I wake up, making phone calls and trying to reinstate stability in my daily routine.

This blank stare routine is ridiculous, honestly. I know I’m better than this. I used to write daily here. Hell, I used to write daily here, weekly at other sites, do my weekly radio show, and still not have a problem with writing. Now? It feels like I’m pulling teeth every time I log into WordPress. I secretly pray that Mary wrote a dozen pieces just so I can prep and publish them, giving me a break and some extra time to think of something else to write.

How do I get rid of this blank stare? I want to have excitement in my words. I want to be here with daily content. I enjoy writing, sharing thoughts, and encouraging dialogue with others. Instead, I find myself going back and forth between this window, a window with an addicting helicopter game, listening to the “Mick in the Morning” show on K-IRB.com, and a couple of chats. I don’t seem to find enough to keep me from leaving, and I even forget to come back to finish this blog entry.

In fact, my latest blank stare was broken by a friend telling me about a website where you can type text and create your own (lame but funny) movies online. I took a conversation I was just having, put it together, and it’s kind of funny. Lame is another word I’d use, but it’s cute nonetheless. Maybe I’ll make a cute little video and post it down the line. That could be fun, and maybe less stressful than looking at the website, trying to pull words out my ass.